So, this was how Kwasi abandoned me. https://news.payperlez.com/index.php/2020/12/20/how-i-got-my-17th-broken-heart-on-my-17th-birthday-part-7/ please do well and read the previous episodes.
My fear of ‘selling out’ my pride never made me give him what he wanted so we ended up breaking up. I thought I could get over it and move on. Yeah, I did move on after the pains and scars Kwasi left in me, especially turning me into a fake person with false identity. In the house, I was the holiest person but let me be left alone in my room or around my bad friends and I was found to be a different satanic species altogether. These are serious scars Kwasi has left on me. These are scars I find difficult to discuss with my parents. I grew with these scars and they were turning me into a monster. By age 14, I had dated more than 4 boys but they all didn’t go anywhere. While jumping from one boy to another, I realized it wasn’t love I was seeking for but a revenge, I just wanted Kwasi to feel jealous but hey, this beast didn’t care. Therefore, I planned to ‘mafia’ any guy who comes into my trap. Of course, I willingly broke up with those four guys who came my way. Some shed tears, others took it in good faith. At age 14 and afterwards, I started to ‘play’ men but as usual none of them had the chance to penetrate me. I was very smart, but fear was my main weapon to escape these ‘dirty’ men who wanted to taste the ‘apple’ in me. I have more ‘fillas’ for you on these men, don’t worry kwraa. Let’s talk about Kwasi. Like I indicated earlier, I still love Kwasi. Of course, so many things have happened since we broke up till now. In those days, we were very naïve, we didn’t know much but at least I am now an SHS graduand, likewise Kwasi. Kwasi is now a shy guy, he is now looking more handsome. Life has ways to repair our mistakes. I heard some rumors about Kwasi and I have come to realize that he has indeed changed. I was shocked when I heard he was the school chaplain while in SHS. He now looks responsible and that has been what I had been looking for ever since Kwasi broke my heart. But I never found any. Virtually all of them wanted something from me. Yes! There were good men I encountered but they all wanted to ‘taste’ me which I wasn’t willing to. I have now seen the gentleness and seriousness in Kwasi my first love. But will he give me a chance at all? He is now shy, this is unbelievable. I can’t even approach him again. Life indeed changes. With time, humans can change for the better. But I haven’t changed. Maybe I am rather changing for the worse. Hmmmm! Anyway, I am happy for Kwasi. At least, we have a new saint on earth. God and the angels will be happy. But sometimes I ask myself if I will make it to heaven. Chaley e no be easy o. I do things paa o
Anticipate the part 9 where I will be telling you my adventures with married men. You don’t wanna miss this!